3 > _There's a heart that must be free
5 > That burns with the need to know
7 > Why must we all conceal
8 > What we think, how we feel?
9 > Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?_
11 > —"Reflection", _Mulan_ (as performed by Christina Aguilera)
13 > "My dear, let us hope it is not true; but, if it is true, let us hope it will not become generally known."
15 > —[probably apocryphal](http://quoteinvestigator.com/2011/02/09/darwinism-hope-pray/) reaction to Darwin's theory of natural selection
17 (This is Worth a Fight?)
18 > "—but if one hundred thousand straights can turn up, to show their support for the gay community, why can't you?"
20 > I said wearily, "Because every time I hear the word _community_, I know I'm being manipulated. If there is such a thing as _the gay community_, I'm certainly not a part of it. As it happens, I don't want to spend my life watching _gay and lesbian_ television channels, using _gay and lesbian_ new systems ... or going to _gay and lesbian_ street parades. It's all so ... proprietary. You'd think there was a multinational corporation who had the franchise rights on homosexuality. And if you don't _market the product_ their way, you're some kind of second-class, inferior, bootleg, unauthorized queer."
22 > —"Cocoon" by Greg Egan
24 > She's AFAB enby but I'm not quite sure what that means
26 > —["Girl All the Bad Guys Want"](https://genius.com/Bowling-for-soup-girl-all-the-bad-guys-want-lyrics) by Bowling for Soup (paraphrased)
28 > What is the most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine.
32 > I knew the mass of men conceal'd
33 > Their thoughts, for fear that if reveal'd
34 > They would by other men be met
35 > With blank indifference, or with blame reprov'd;
36 > I knew they liv'd and mov'd
37 > Trick'd in disguises, alien to the rest
38 > Of men, and alien to themselves—and yet
39 > The same heart beats in every human breast!
41 > "The Buried Life" by Matthew Arnold
43 > All should be laid open to you without reserve, for there is not a truth existing which I fear, or would wish unknown to the whole world
47 > Ultimately every examined life can be interpreted as a disaster; looking closely enough we can always discover psychological and social forces that provide fuel for unlimited rage. [...] But no life can transcend its own disasters unless it celebrates its uniqueness and contributes that which only it can contribute. Life is perverted if one is constantly reacting, never initiating, but always allowing rage to define it.
49 > —Steven Goldberg, _Why Men Rule: A Theory of Male Dominance_
51 quote that _Blindsight_ passage about an evil god setting males and females against each other
55 (Simple Models Plus Noise Are Better ...)
56 > The study of psychology is a violation of my privacy.
58 > —[@InstanceOfClass](https://twitter.com/InstanceOfClass/status/296450595420778497)
60 (response to hate mail)
61 > And believe me I am still alive
62 > I'm doing science and I'm still alive
63 > I feel fantastic and I'm still alive
64 > While you're dying I'll be still alive
65 > And when you're dead I will be still alive
67 > —_Portal_ end credits song
69 (Collective Guilt, Collective Shame)
70 > "My taxon, right or wrong; if right, to be kept right; and if wrong, to be set right."
72 > —Carl Shurz (paraphrased)
74 (Blanchard's Dangerous Idea)
75 > If you could only know
78 > —[_Steven Universe_ extended theme](https://youtu.be/H23rpzOAIzQ?t=48s)
80 (sex differences are the right thing to deny)
81 > Some mommies are ranchers, or poetry makers
82 > Or doctors or teachers, or cleaners or bakers
83 > Some mommies drive taxis, or sing on TV
84 > Yeah, mommies can be almost anything they want to be!
86 > (Well, they can't be grandfathers
89 > —"Parents Are People", _Free to Be You and Me_
91 (The Gender Czar's Compromise)
92 > Should array indices start at 0 or 1? My compromise of 0.5 was rejected without, I thought, proper consideration.
96 (critiquing Julia Serano on trans being natural)
97 > Because it's going to be the future soon
98 > And I won't always be this way
99 > When the things that make me weak and strange
100 > Get engineered away
102 > —"The Future Soon" by Jonathan Coulton
104 (how long can the lie endure?? what happens when it all falls down?)
105 > It's time to put an end to this deception
107 > When the whole thing is at an end
108 > And you learn that it's just pretend
109 > You'll cry "Deception"
111 > —"Deception", _Jem_
113 > Ooh-bi-doo, I wanna be like you
114 > I want to walk like you, talk like you, too
115 > You see it's true, an ape like me
116 > Can learn to be like you, too
118 > —"I Wanna Be Like You", _The Jungle Book_
121 Moliere on "dormative virtue"
123 (Blanchard's Dangerous Idea)
125 > The man has only one look, for Christ's sake! Crossdresser, demigirl, trans woman? They're the _same people_!
127 > Doesn't anyone notice this? I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!
129 > —[_Zoolander_](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mbKBWtoH93Q) (paraphrased)
131 > Perhaps someday we [...] will be able to forthrightly acknowledge the paraphilic hand we were dealt and play that hand without equivocation or apology.
133 > —Anne Lawrence, _Men Trapped in Men's Bodies_
135 (The Hand I Was Dealt)
136 > Well this is the one that I had to write, it's like a
137 > A letter of love with no love left out
139 > —"Dying to Begin" by Stretch Princess
141 (The Hand I Was Dealt?)
142 > I'll write my way out
143 > Write everything down, far as I can see
144 > I'll write my way out
145 > Overwhelm them with honesty
146 > This is the eye of the hurricane
147 > This is the only way I can protect my legacy
149 > —"Hurricane", _Hamilton_
152 > The other side of me
153 > I'm just like anybody else, can't you tell
156 > The girl that I want you to know
157 > If only I could show
158 > The other side, the other side, the other side of me
160 > —"The Other Side of Me" by Hannah Montana
163 > I would be your girl
165 > —"The One That Got Away" by Katy Perry
167 > He once said, "None of the other Rationals I've ever met have anything but an empty-head for an Emotional. I'm lucky." She had said, "But the other Rationals seem to like empty-heads. Why are you different from them, Odeen?" Odeen did not deny that the other Rationals liked empty-heads. He just said, "I've never figured it out and I don't think it's important that I do. I'm pleased with you and I'm pleased that I'm pleased."
169 > —_The Gods Themselves_ by Isaac Asimov
173 Less obviously fitting—
175 > Knowing his occupation and observing him briefly and superficially were sufficient, together, for me to guess confidently about aspects of Edwin's life that he never mentioned. I know what he was like as a boy. I know what kind of person he is sexually attracted to. I know what kinds of activities interest him and what kinds do not. I am least sure what he will look like five years from now.
177 > —J. Michael Bailey, _The Man Who Would Be Queen: the Science of Gender-Bending and Transsexualism_, Preface
179 > I cannot believe my eyes
180 > How the world's filled with filth and lies
181 > But it's plain to see
185 > —"My Eyes", _Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog_
187 > "I will destroy you and steal your fiancé, booty booty booty booty rocking everywhere!"
189 > —[from](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AF2HCgzxMDA) _Friendship Is Witchcraft_, "Foaly Matripony"
191 > And there's a fine, fine line
192 > Between what you wanted
194 > You've got to go after the things you want
195 > While you're still in your prime
197 > —"There's a Fine, Fine Line", _Avenue Q_
199 > I know there's more that's out there
200 > And I just haven't found it yet
201 > I know there's more that's out there
202 > Another me I haven't met
204 > —"What More Is Out There", _My Little Pony Equestria Girls: Friendship Games_
206 > I don't give a damn about my reputation
207 > You're living in the past it's a new generation
208 > A girl can do what she wants to do
209 > And that's what I'm gonna do
211 > —"Bad Reputation" by Joan Jett
213 > "The Order of Silent Confessors exists in the hope that, so long as humanity is sane, it can make choices in accordance with its true desires. Thus there is our Order dedicated _only_ to that, and sworn not to interfere in politics. So you will spend more time discussing this scenario, my lords, my ladies, and only then generate solutions. And then ... you will decide."
215 > —[_Three Worlds Collide_](http://lesswrong.com/lw/y6/war_andor_peace_28/) by Eliezer Yudkowsky
217 > The realization blasted through Harry like a vast dam breaking, releasing out all its water, bursting through his mind in an irresistible flood that swept everything away.
219 > There is only one reality that generates all of the observations.
221 > If different observations seem to point in incompatible directions, it means the true hypothesis is one you haven't thought of yet.
223 > —_Harry Potter and the Methods of Rationality_ by Eliezer Yudkowsky
225 > I don't want to sabotage you
226 > But you see, I've got to try
228 > —"I'll Fly", _My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic_
230 > Sometimes the things you want
231 > Are not the things you need
232 > And it was right there in front of me
234 > —"Right There in Front of Me", _My Little Pony Equestria Girls: Friendship Games_
236 http://www.orwell.ru/library/essays/politics/english/e_polit/
238 > A woman came up to me and said
239 > "I'd like to poison your mind
240 > With wrong ideas that appeal to you
241 > Though I am not unkind"
243 > —"Whistling in the Dark" by They Might Be Giants