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4 days agodrafting Fan Expo account master
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 28 Nov 2022 06:45:52 +0000 (22:45 -0800)]
drafting Fan Expo account

Okay, this isn't going out the door tonight, but let's get it out the
door tomorrow, and back to the memoir—I mean, the interesting memoir
of religious betrayal, not this crappy opportunistic "my day at Fan
Expo" memoir.

4 days agoI figured out how to make the "Cocoon" epigraph quote fit!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 28 Nov 2022 05:12:34 +0000 (21:12 -0800)]
I figured out how to make the "Cocoon" epigraph quote fit!

5 days agoSF Fan Expo bullet points
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 27 Nov 2022 06:53:45 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
SF Fan Expo bullet points

Seems fine to do a quick post about this, as long as it's quick—out
the door tomorrow night (I had hoped to finish and publish
"Multi-Product Review" before this, because it describes the mask
purchase, and then I thought about delaying this to finish
"Multi-Product Review" first, but that's a terrible idea; this isn't
interesting enough of a post to be worth an extended writing and
editing process; the excuse for publishing a less-interesting post is
that it's cheap to produce and shove out the door fast while it's
still about a recent memory)

6 days agomemoir: deep learning blues
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 26 Nov 2022 02:45:26 +0000 (18:45 -0800)]
memoir: deep learning blues

6 days agocheck in (peeking at resources on the laptop)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 26 Nov 2022 01:44:05 +0000 (17:44 -0800)]
check in (peeking at resources on the laptop)

7 days agomorning poke (walrus, soldiers)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 25 Nov 2022 17:42:01 +0000 (09:42 -0800)]
morning poke (walrus, soldiers)

7 days agomemoir: Meghan Murphy's law, triskaidekaphobia, tap at recap
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 25 Nov 2022 06:44:36 +0000 (22:44 -0800)]
memoir: Meghan Murphy's law, triskaidekaphobia, tap at recap

7 days agocheck in
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check in

10 days agoharvest some net resources on a cable-in day
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 22 Nov 2022 05:59:24 +0000 (21:59 -0800)]
harvest some net resources on a cable-in day

11 days agomemoir: pt. 5 bullet expansion—xrisk, SJ, Dolphin War
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 21 Nov 2022 00:02:21 +0000 (16:02 -0800)]
memoir: pt. 5 bullet expansion—xrisk, SJ, Dolphin War

The diffusion model methodology: notes → bullet points → more detailed
bullet points → prose. This should make it easier to write
prose. Right?

12 days agomemoir: absolutely trying to be a religious leader
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 20:07:15 +0000 (12:07 -0800)]
memoir: absolutely trying to be a religious leader

12 days agocheck in name spelling correction and anchor
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 20:03:51 +0000 (12:03 -0800)]
check in name spelling correction and anchor

12 days agomemoir: yank out a new pt. 4!!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 02:23:27 +0000 (18:23 -0800)]
memoir: yank out a new pt. 4!!

Previously, I was imagining a three part structure, with the middle
part being substantially bigger: "Blanchard's Dangerous Idea" (20K
words), "Hill of Validity" (40K words), "Agreeing With Stalin" (20K
words).

The reason for keeping the middle part so large was because I thought
the period from November 2018 (the Twitter thread that started the
civil war) to September 2020 (the end of the Category War) was a unit
that should be kept together.

But when I started looking for the median of the piece by wordcount,
it turns out it was actually after the discussion of "... Boundaries?"
That actually is a good cutoff point!

That is, previously I was thinking the structure was "2017 AGP
freakout", "Category War", "political epilogue"—and I wasn't happy
with how that put the December 2020 psychiatric disaster at the top of
the political epilogue. (If it didn't belong in the story of the
Category War ending September 2020, it chronologically fit in at the
beginning of the next post.)

But if Nov. 2018–Apr. 2019 is its own part, then the next part becomes
the Whole Dumb Story of my alliance with the Vassarites, and it is
natural for that to end with the psychiatric disaster of December
2020! I also get to use an awesome partial quote from Michael as a
title (which just occured to me now while trying to think of a title).

A 4·20K tetrology is better for readers than a middle-lop-sided
20K/40K/20K trilogy.

There are also seem to be psychological/motivational benefits: this
way, I'm actually done with pt. 3! (No TODO blocks, and probably not
even that much editing.) If I finish what's now pt. 5 soon (seems
doable), then I "just" have to go back an fill in the history for pt.s
2 and 4.

I also think it changes the focus, in a good way?! By framing pt. 4 as
the story of the Vassarites, I feel more like I'm telling a story,
rather than writing a hate letter about Yudkowsky. I think this is
good for me.

12 days agomulti-product review: finish bodysuit §, write quick mask §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 20 Nov 2022 01:27:26 +0000 (17:27 -0800)]
multi-product review: finish bodysuit §, write quick mask §

12 days agomemoir: poke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 21:34:40 +0000 (13:34 -0800)]
memoir: poke

13 days agomemoir: pokes, community college guidance counselor anecdote
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 05:40:07 +0000 (21:40 -0800)]
memoir: pokes, community college guidance counselor anecdote

The analysis of the pronoun post has so many banger lines.

I think I'm going to need to cut or footnote a lot of the Topher email
section, which is less interesting and deserves less relative
wordcount. (Play-by-play of social media exchanges are boring; I was
originally only going to mention it on account of my highly-Liked
comment being a potential explanation for him reopening the
discussion; if it's there, it's there as evidence supporting the
"privacy as expectation to participate in a political cover-up"
angle.)

13 days agomemoir: bridge from email leak to resumption of hostilities
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 19 Nov 2022 00:48:40 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
memoir: bridge from email leak to resumption of hostilities

13 days agoI ordered another product for next week's Fan Expo
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 18 Nov 2022 21:39:12 +0000 (13:39 -0800)]
I ordered another product for next week's Fan Expo

This is going to be lit!

2 weeks agomemoir: save off a bunch of net resources before pulling my cable
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 18 Nov 2022 02:03:09 +0000 (18:03 -0800)]
memoir: save off a bunch of net resources before pulling my cable

The "physically pull out the network cable" strategy for avoiding
distraction is really dumb, but unfortunately, it's actually more
reliable than toggling the connection in software or having willpower
to do the right thing.

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agoSunday
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 14 Nov 2022 07:47:21 +0000 (23:47 -0800)]
Sunday

2 weeks agomemoir: trans as shield, email leak
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 13 Nov 2022 03:03:29 +0000 (19:03 -0800)]
memoir: trans as shield, email leak

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agosilenced
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 12 Nov 2022 03:53:32 +0000 (19:53 -0800)]
silenced

2 weeks agocheck in
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2 weeks agomemoir: weirdly brazen invalid inference for a major newspaper
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 11 Nov 2022 23:37:58 +0000 (15:37 -0800)]
memoir: weirdly brazen invalid inference for a major newspaper

3 weeks agomemoir: poke at NYT war (prelude to pronouns)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 11 Nov 2022 05:38:23 +0000 (21:38 -0800)]
memoir: poke at NYT war (prelude to pronouns)

3 weeks agocheck in
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3 weeks agopoke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 9 Nov 2022 06:53:58 +0000 (22:53 -0800)]
poke

I had to at least poke the ms. for a full timer block, so that I'm
moving forwards (I didn't even get a full timer block last night), and
so that I'm allowed to have ice-cream.

3 weeks agopoke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 8 Nov 2022 07:11:07 +0000 (23:11 -0800)]
poke

3 weeks agocheck in
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check in

I think I want to cuss sparingly.

3 weeks agomemoir: the beginning of the Dolphin War
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 7 Nov 2022 06:08:41 +0000 (22:08 -0800)]
memoir: the beginning of the Dolphin War

3 weeks agomemoir: great battle footnote replies
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 6 Nov 2022 19:10:20 +0000 (11:10 -0800)]
memoir: great battle footnote replies

Want to point out the hypocrisy but don't want to distract from the
"battle that matters" speech.

3 weeks agoNovember 5 is problematic but November is still serious
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 6 Nov 2022 03:01:32 +0000 (20:01 -0700)]
November 5 is problematic but November is still serious

A friend of the blog points out that an earlier commit message was
lying about the cable being out all weekend. That's ... not good.

But it's also not a total collapse of my planning credibility. We've
seen me finish long pieces before. An 86K word piece is mostly just
seven 12K word pieces stapled together, with some additional
oversight. It's objectively reasonable to expect me to find some new
Ainslie–Schelling points and make November serious!

3 weeks agocheck in
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3 weeks agomemoir bulleting
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 21:07:10 +0000 (14:07 -0700)]
memoir bulleting

3 weeks agopoke and bullet?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 05:38:26 +0000 (22:38 -0700)]
poke and bullet?

3 weeks agomemoir poke and fold
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 5 Nov 2022 04:16:34 +0000 (21:16 -0700)]
memoir poke and fold

After some progress from 11–1530, I degenerated into continuing my
re-read of Second Foundation. (It'd been years!) Is today over? No—an
experiment in bribes: I told myself I could check the net on my laptop
and watch a show from 2300 to midnight if I squeeze in four (amend
that, I actually wrote "3" in my planner?)  blocks before 2300. I'm
sure it's that easy: as long as my butt is in the desk chair and I'm
engaged with the ms. in some form, then I'm moving forward, and any
form of violence, deceit, or corruption that increases chair time is
in the service of the God–Empress.

3 weeks agoa thought about privacy while I was out on my walk
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:56:29 +0000 (16:56 -0700)]
a thought about privacy while I was out on my walk

3 weeks agomemoir progress projection
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:23:21 +0000 (16:23 -0700)]
memoir progress projection

3 weeks agomemoir: "discrediting to the community" sub-§
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:22:14 +0000 (16:22 -0700)]
memoir: "discrediting to the community" sub-§

3 weeks agomemoir: pt. 4 opportunistic edit passing
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 23:21:36 +0000 (16:21 -0700)]
memoir: pt. 4 opportunistic edit passing

4 weeks agoNovember 3 specifically wasn't serious but November is serious
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 4 Nov 2022 06:37:32 +0000 (23:37 -0700)]
November 3 specifically wasn't serious but November is serious

I think I was hoping to do more in the evening, but I got called away
to a Friendship Problem (even though I was re-watching Pantheon ep. 7
when I got called)? The moral is that yet again, I thought I was sane
enough to function with internet today, and yet again, I was not. The
cable comes out for at least the next two days, and likely until
evening Sunday.

4 weeks agocheck in (November is serious)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 3 Nov 2022 20:51:00 +0000 (13:51 -0700)]
check in (November is serious)

4 weeks agotap at multi-product review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 2 Nov 2022 05:59:46 +0000 (22:59 -0700)]
tap at multi-product review

On this first day of a new month, it seemed important that I get some
blog work done in the evening and not just hedonism, even though I
already did dayjob work today. I need to make progress every day this
month to see how far I can get on that memoir! (But tapping at this
should-be-quick post instead of the memoir today is fine; I want to
finish this Thursday as a prerequisite for my report on this month's
Fan Expo (because where else would I try out my new mask?), and then
the rest of the month is memoir.

4 weeks agocheck in
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4 weeks agomemoir: reducing negativity (to § end)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 31 Oct 2022 02:04:12 +0000 (19:04 -0700)]
memoir: reducing negativity (to § end)

I was having trouble getting started today, but I think I finally got
some flow and did some real thinking?!

4 weeks agomemoir: bullet and shovel
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 21:39:05 +0000 (14:39 -0700)]
memoir: bullet and shovel

4 weeks agomemoir: bullet outline remainder of reducing-negativity §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 19:54:08 +0000 (12:54 -0700)]
memoir: bullet outline remainder of reducing-negativity §

Having trouble getting started? Nothing wrong with incremental
progress and tiny commits. The chain-of-thought prompting approach: if
you a large enough amount of computation turning vague notes into
less-vague bullet-outlines and less-vague bullet outlines into
paragraphs, you can eventually diffuse a completed ms. My limiting
factor is really the "large enough amount of computation", which is
rectified by keeping my butt in this chair and keeping the timer
running.

4 weeks agodrop images into multi-product review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 16:31:27 +0000 (09:31 -0700)]
drop images into multi-product review

4 weeks agomemoir: reducing negativity
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 30 Oct 2022 04:44:52 +0000 (21:44 -0700)]
memoir: reducing negativity

4 weeks agomemoir: Jessica help on "Optimized for Deception"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 22:25:15 +0000 (15:25 -0700)]
memoir: Jessica help on "Optimized for Deception"

4 weeks agomemoir progress metrics
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 15:21:19 +0000 (08:21 -0700)]
memoir progress metrics

This would be very Goodhartable (and doesn't take into account that
blockquotes or pre-written content from earlier notes/drafts getting
pasted into the ms. is easier than new ms. material), but I think it
does show that I started taking things more seriously in July ("An
Egoist Faith" having been published on 24 June).

I'd have to hit 1265 each today and tomorrow in order to match
August. (Monday I have to dayjob, and Alex Mennen's lecture series is
covering spectral graph theory.) That's very ambitious, but not, I
think, out of the question—if I take myself seriously.

4 weeks agocheck in, including Signal review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 29 Oct 2022 06:11:50 +0000 (23:11 -0700)]
check in, including Signal review

4 weeks agoorganizing immediate TODOs ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 28 Oct 2022 19:59:59 +0000 (12:59 -0700)]
organizing immediate TODOs ...

5 weeks agocheck in ...
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check in ...

I'm here; I'm oriented to the ms.; issuing a commit now so I can
continue to build on a clean staging area.

5 weeks agoJanet Mock quotepost
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 28 Oct 2022 18:40:54 +0000 (11:40 -0700)]
Janet Mock quotepost

Having trouble getting started today—probably a mistake to have left
my phone on (thinking that I would use it to review Signal
history). Getting this filler post ready to queue is something?

The Doberman in the new Super Auto Pets is an interesting pivot unit?
But if I wanted to live, I wouldn't be thinking of Super Auto Pets.

If I just—keep the watch running, and force myself to spend time with
the ms., text will happen?

5 weeks agocheck in
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check in

5 weeks agothe erotica tools post incl. silicone products, not just deep learning
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 28 Oct 2022 06:07:57 +0000 (23:07 -0700)]
the erotica tools post incl. silicone products, not just deep learning

5 weeks agomemoir net fetch chores
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 28 Oct 2022 06:06:18 +0000 (23:06 -0700)]
memoir net fetch chores

5 weeks agocheck in
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check in

5 weeks agomemoir: yank out a pt. 4
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 26 Oct 2022 05:01:26 +0000 (22:01 -0700)]
memoir: yank out a pt. 4

Something feels wrong about the thought of mirroring a 50K word post
on Less Wrong. People would have to scroll down too far to read the
comments, and I want people to read the comments? Page load time on
that bloated JavaScript site? (Shouldn't be an issue; Jessica's
dramapost is slow to load, but that's almost certainly because of the
db JOINing all those comments, not because there's too much text.) For
whatever reason, a 35K word post feels better.

Not entirely sure about the title or the epigraph.

5 weeks agomemoir: zinger cap to Christmas 2019 §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 23 Oct 2022 22:44:41 +0000 (15:44 -0700)]
memoir: zinger cap to Christmas 2019 §

5 weeks agomemoir: Christmas party 2019 (to § end)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 23 Oct 2022 21:23:34 +0000 (14:23 -0700)]
memoir: Christmas party 2019 (to § end)

I'm going to want to edit/rewrite part of this to better explain some
of the Vassarite inside baseball and tie it off with a zinger, but I
think this is good enough for a first pass?

5 weeks agomemoir: Christmas party 2019
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 23 Oct 2022 05:18:33 +0000 (22:18 -0700)]
memoir: Christmas party 2019

5 weeks agocheck in
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5 weeks agomemoir: can't leave well enough alone (to § end)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 22 Oct 2022 05:55:11 +0000 (22:55 -0700)]
memoir: can't leave well enough alone (to § end)

5 weeks agomemoir: can't leave well enough alone
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 22 Oct 2022 00:30:57 +0000 (17:30 -0700)]
memoir: can't leave well enough alone

6 weeks agomemoir: Summer 2019 email re-review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 21 Oct 2022 20:40:23 +0000 (13:40 -0700)]
memoir: Summer 2019 email re-review

My email review file isn't being that useful if I'm just going to
re-read the emails again while taking notes into the ms. I think these
bullets are detailed enough for me to make another pass turning them
into prose, and continuously filling out this § of the ms. (likely
another day when I have network clearance to review threads that I
don't have saved off into the private notes directory)?

6 weeks agomemoir tap
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 21 Oct 2022 05:27:39 +0000 (22:27 -0700)]
memoir tap

6 weeks agomemoir editing
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 20 Oct 2022 23:08:26 +0000 (16:08 -0700)]
memoir editing

6 weeks agothinking about dropping the pseudonym ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 20 Oct 2022 19:31:10 +0000 (12:31 -0700)]
thinking about dropping the pseudonym ...

The non-secret identity games have already worn thin, and if I'm
telling this story that already ties into a lot of real-world
drama—for example, some of the public interest in my story will come
from how it relates to Jessica's story and the public intrigue around
whether Michael is Good or Bad, which has already been the subject of
a 950+ comment trainwreck—and if I'm actively trying to deal
reputational damage to other people's realnames (viz. Yudkowsky), it's
only fair that I show my own realname while doing it, and if I'm
dropping it for these posts, it makes sense to drop it for the whole
blog ...

For now, I'm just going to supply an "Author:" heading on these
postfiles individually, while I'm still drafting; the full blog
rebrand (and changing .gitconfig) can wait until I'm ready and thought
through all the angles.

6 weeks agocheck in
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6 weeks agomemoir: more 2019 event scaffolding
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 17 Oct 2022 01:06:16 +0000 (18:06 -0700)]
memoir: more 2019 event scaffolding

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6 weeks agomemoir: May 2019 tussle with Anna
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 16 Oct 2022 21:53:40 +0000 (14:53 -0700)]
memoir: May 2019 tussle with Anna

6 weeks agocheck in
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6 weeks agoSatur-day memoir redemption session
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 16 Oct 2022 01:25:50 +0000 (18:25 -0700)]
Satur-day memoir redemption session

6 weeks agocheck in before redemption
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 15 Oct 2022 15:35:53 +0000 (08:35 -0700)]
check in before redemption

I somehow lost track of time yesterday?! It was awful! I must not be
complacent today. I am on-mission today!

7 weeks agomemoir: shovel content from "I Tell" draft; including, footnotes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 14 Oct 2022 20:18:03 +0000 (13:18 -0700)]
memoir: shovel content from "I Tell" draft; including, footnotes

Since the function of this megapost is to say everything I need to say
in one place, footnotes seem like a useful vehicle for folding away
some ancillary content such that it doesn't slow down the main
narrative more than it needs to.

7 weeks agomemoir: compile rationality quotes from other authors
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 14 Oct 2022 18:21:42 +0000 (11:21 -0700)]
memoir: compile rationality quotes from other authors

7 weeks agocheck in
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7 weeks agomemoir: grab reference material from internet before I go offline
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 14 Oct 2022 00:34:59 +0000 (17:34 -0700)]
memoir: grab reference material from internet before I go offline

We really want to finish telling the Whole Dumb Story this year!! I'm
meeting Seanan briefly, and I've spent a lot of time today being
netsick, but at least just now I've copied down online refs that I
need for the text, so I can pull my network cable out and write
frantically for the next three days.

7 weeks agocheck in
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7 weeks agomemoir: TODO outlining in 2019 and to close
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 9 Oct 2022 23:36:58 +0000 (16:36 -0700)]
memoir: TODO outlining in 2019 and to close

Okay, after some more email review, now these TODO blocks feel
sufficiently specific, that just filling them in one by one actually
seems viable as a plan to get a continuous first draft? I think there
are like 37 TODO blocks?

(Then there's edit passes, inserting good content from the sections
file that didn't make it in, finishing "Blanchard's Dangerous Idea",
finishing the reply to Scott on autogenderphilia, finishing the
supplement about pseudonyms, getting feedback from friendly and
hostile prereaders, asking privacy-mongers if it's OK to name them
... think I can do it all in three months??)

7 weeks agomemoir: threatening to walk
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 9 Oct 2022 22:36:51 +0000 (15:36 -0700)]
memoir: threatening to walk

7 weeks agomemoir: abortive early memoir attempt, dayjob stuggles
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 9 Oct 2022 18:50:48 +0000 (11:50 -0700)]
memoir: abortive early memoir attempt, dayjob stuggles

7 weeks agocheck in dath ilan griping notes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 9 Oct 2022 17:21:03 +0000 (10:21 -0700)]
check in dath ilan griping notes

I really shouldn't waste time in the 'Eliezerfic' Discord server. I
had some notes of some more griping I wanted to do there, but it's
better if I check it in as a draft. If I end up having a few spare
cycles on a weekday to polish it into a post for this blog, I can post
the link in the channel as a bonus (with a "content warning:
anti-Semitism, discussion of sex crimes"), but it's really not what
I'm supposed to be working on right now.

(My hostile commentary on dath ilan is motivated by my resentment of
modern Yudkowsky; it's more efficient and less obfuscated to finish
telling the Whole Dumb Story of why I resent him so much.)

7 weeks agomemoir: post-defeat, April 2019
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 9 Oct 2022 00:53:38 +0000 (17:53 -0700)]
memoir: post-defeat, April 2019

I hadn't been sure how to explain the schism, and it looks like "just
summarize the emails" is working OK ...

7 weeks agomemoir: I need a better outline of what happened in Apr.–Nov. 2019
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 7 Oct 2022 23:23:47 +0000 (16:23 -0700)]
memoir: I need a better outline of what happened in Apr.–Nov. 2019

I had a bunch of individual scraps and sentences, but I wasn't sure
how to organize them; I don't know how to explain the factional
schism. Reading through the email review log chronologically and just
trying to tell the Dumb Story chronologically probably can't hurt?

8 weeks agomemoir: rent-extraction machine
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 7 Oct 2022 19:48:47 +0000 (12:48 -0700)]
memoir: rent-extraction machine

8 weeks agocheck in / false start?
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 7 Oct 2022 17:33:24 +0000 (10:33 -0700)]
check in / false start?

Starting a serious work day at ten-thirty-something is fine! It's
fine. I'm here.

8 weeks agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 7 Oct 2022 06:18:24 +0000 (23:18 -0700)]
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8 weeks agocheck in before a solid three-day sprint!!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 7 Oct 2022 00:12:39 +0000 (17:12 -0700)]
check in before a solid three-day sprint!!

I pulled out my network cable yesterday, but let myself get distracted
with phone and laptop. (I am proud of some zinger commentary I got off
in the Eliezerfic server.)

I have plans to see Father on Sunday evening. I want to get some solid
momentum tonight, and treat tomorrow, Saturday, and Sunday-before-17
as serious heads-down workdays. The phone should go off after I watch
teevee tonight (there's a new Lower Decks, and I'm enjoying the
Hansonian black comedy Avenue 5); it's too dangerous.

2 months agomemoir tap
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 3 Oct 2022 00:41:14 +0000 (17:41 -0700)]
memoir tap

2 months agomemoir: defeat, should have known, bot therapy
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 22:05:15 +0000 (15:05 -0700)]
memoir: defeat, should have known, bot therapy

2 months agomemoir: Category War initial defeat
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 19:33:20 +0000 (12:33 -0700)]
memoir: Category War initial defeat

2 months agomemoir: skeleton prep for Category War initial defeat §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 18:13:19 +0000 (11:13 -0700)]
memoir: skeleton prep for Category War initial defeat §

2 months agomemoir check in
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2 months agomemoir: trans kids on the margin
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 2 Oct 2022 00:33:21 +0000 (17:33 -0700)]
memoir: trans kids on the margin

This is going to need some editing and is definitely subject to prior
constraint. But I think it's much stronger to have this part, rather
than to say "not my story to tell" and move on without a hint.