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19 months agomemoir: feminism consult, "doesn't unambiguously refer", Ben 1st contact
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 18 Mar 2023 23:28:35 +0000 (16:28 -0700)]
memoir: feminism consult, "doesn't unambiguously refer", Ben 1st contact

19 months agomemoir check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 18 Mar 2023 05:35:45 +0000 (22:35 -0700)]
memoir check in

19 months agomemoir: Sophia knows more statistics than me
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 18 Mar 2023 05:34:01 +0000 (22:34 -0700)]
memoir: Sophia knows more statistics than me

19 months agomemoir: Sophia correspondence
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 18 Mar 2023 00:35:13 +0000 (17:35 -0700)]
memoir: Sophia correspondence

19 months agomemoir: "Helen" and Sophia
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 17 Mar 2023 04:33:51 +0000 (21:33 -0700)]
memoir: "Helen" and Sophia

19 months agomemoir: secrets vs. spoilers
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 17 Mar 2023 01:44:19 +0000 (18:44 -0700)]
memoir: secrets vs. spoilers

19 months agodiff column to wordcount CSV
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 16 Mar 2023 05:46:47 +0000 (22:46 -0700)]
diff column to wordcount CSV

We want four-figure diffs to be normal, not unusually good!

19 months agomemoir: feminism consultation/counterfactual phone anxiety advice
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 16 Mar 2023 05:38:41 +0000 (22:38 -0700)]
memoir: feminism consultation/counterfactual phone anxiety advice

19 months agocheck in (incl. memoir—tap at December 2019 blogging spree)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 16 Mar 2023 00:44:42 +0000 (17:44 -0700)]
check in (incl. memoir—tap at December 2019 blogging spree)

19 months agomemoir: "The AI Timelines Scam"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 15 Mar 2023 20:25:17 +0000 (13:25 -0700)]
memoir: "The AI Timelines Scam"

19 months agomemoir: children's lessons without very advanced math
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 14 Mar 2023 00:16:29 +0000 (17:16 -0700)]
memoir: children's lessons without very advanced math

19 months agosome net tasks
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 12 Mar 2023 22:44:12 +0000 (15:44 -0700)]
some net tasks

19 months agomemoir: "nobody stays here by faking reality in any manner whatever"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 12 Mar 2023 06:38:54 +0000 (22:38 -0800)]
memoir: "nobody stays here by faking reality in any manner whatever"

19 months agocheck in
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19 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight (authorial fiat), poke at conclusion
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 11 Mar 2023 05:28:42 +0000 (21:28 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight (authorial fiat), poke at conclusion

19 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 10 Mar 2023 05:23:59 +0000 (21:23 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd

19 months agomemoir: "always a complicated person"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 9 Mar 2023 06:12:18 +0000 (22:12 -0800)]
memoir: "always a complicated person"

Separately from getting caught up in fighting on Less Wrong, I think
I've been self-deceiving about fitting in time to finish this §?
(Because it hurts to confront the part where I'm fighting Big Yud.)
The fact that I wrote committed this today is a good sign that I'm
facing the reality (even if a lot of the day's wordcount isn't "real"
because it's Discord blockquotes, and even part of the text that
isn't, is edited from Discord logs with Scott).

19 months agomemoir check-in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 8 Mar 2023 04:36:45 +0000 (20:36 -0800)]
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19 months agomemoir: "LessWrong.com is dead to me", pt. 1
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 7 Mar 2023 01:49:57 +0000 (17:49 -0800)]
memoir: "LessWrong.com is dead to me", pt. 1

19 months agomemoir: "Unnatural Categories" publication
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 6 Mar 2023 19:15:26 +0000 (11:15 -0800)]
memoir: "Unnatural Categories" publication

19 months agocheck in
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20 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight poke
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 1 Mar 2023 04:18:40 +0000 (20:18 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight poke

20 months agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 28 Feb 2023 20:26:00 +0000 (12:26 -0800)]
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20 months agomemoir: theory of conspiracies
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 28 Feb 2023 06:11:41 +0000 (22:11 -0800)]
memoir: theory of conspiracies

20 months agomemoir: slapfight on "Yes Requires"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 26 Feb 2023 02:47:09 +0000 (18:47 -0800)]
memoir: slapfight on "Yes Requires"

20 months agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 25 Feb 2023 05:40:23 +0000 (21:40 -0800)]
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20 months agomemoir: New York
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 25 Feb 2023 05:39:33 +0000 (21:39 -0800)]
memoir: New York

20 months agomemoir: the Death with Dignity era (plug §)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 25 Feb 2023 04:48:41 +0000 (20:48 -0800)]
memoir: the Death with Dignity era (plug §)

There's actually a lot more to be said here (about psychologically
preparing for the end, about better-prepared alternate worlds and the
profound silliness of the Asimov universe), but if I'm not immediately
sure how to say it, I think I'm OK with filling in the gap of this
TODO block (as forward progress towards a continuous ms. without gaps)
with the understanding that I can add more later if the structure
comes to me.

20 months agomemoir: last email and not bothering him anymore
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 24 Feb 2023 20:34:02 +0000 (12:34 -0800)]
memoir: last email and not bothering him anymore

20 months agomemoir: "Autogenderphilia Is Common"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 24 Feb 2023 03:10:57 +0000 (19:10 -0800)]
memoir: "Autogenderphilia Is Common"

I was imagining just dumping the text of my draft into the memoir, but
it's too much of a digression; it does need to be a separate post.

20 months agomemoir: Valinor before and after COVID
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 23 Feb 2023 06:10:07 +0000 (22:10 -0800)]
memoir: Valinor before and after COVID

If I'm willing to give adults pseudonyms for political cover, then the
final version probably shouldn't use children's names at all—maybe not
even for their sake (as I do the moral accounting), but to look less
creepy to third-party readers. But we can cover that in a future edit
pass after privacy negotiations.

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agomemoir: October 2021 Discord parley with Scott
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 23 Feb 2023 00:51:10 +0000 (16:51 -0800)]
memoir: October 2021 Discord parley with Scott

20 months agomemoir: date night in Cambridge, conclusion
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 22 Feb 2023 00:43:37 +0000 (16:43 -0800)]
memoir: date night in Cambridge, conclusion

20 months agomemoir: date night in Cambridge, pt. 2
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 21 Feb 2023 01:26:17 +0000 (17:26 -0800)]
memoir: date night in Cambridge, pt. 2

20 months agomemoir: Facebook image receipts
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 20 Feb 2023 04:43:46 +0000 (20:43 -0800)]
memoir: Facebook image receipts

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agoremove `anchor-` from anchors in "... To Make Predictions"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 19 Feb 2023 01:52:56 +0000 (17:52 -0800)]
remove `anchor-` from anchors in "... To Make Predictions"

20 months agomemoir: Sabbatai Zevi
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 18 Feb 2023 06:11:54 +0000 (22:11 -0800)]
memoir: Sabbatai Zevi

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agomemoir: the case for voting for nincompoops
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 17 Feb 2023 06:37:09 +0000 (22:37 -0800)]
memoir: the case for voting for nincompoops

20 months agomemoir: pie-splitting contest
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 16 Feb 2023 03:23:48 +0000 (19:23 -0800)]
memoir: pie-splitting contest

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agomemoir: outlining about threats
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 14 Feb 2023 07:35:58 +0000 (23:35 -0800)]
memoir: outlining about threats

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agocopy edits and Facebook screenshots from prereader feedback
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 12 Feb 2023 20:38:18 +0000 (12:38 -0800)]
copy edits and Facebook screenshots from prereader feedback

20 months agocheck in
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20 months agomemoir: tap at Discord parley with Scott
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 12 Feb 2023 06:26:14 +0000 (22:26 -0800)]
memoir: tap at Discord parley with Scott

20 months agomemoir: tap at threats §
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 12 Feb 2023 00:14:04 +0000 (16:14 -0800)]
memoir: tap at threats §

Not sure how to weave in the Emerson prosecution anecdote; keep
rolling

20 months agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 11 Feb 2023 05:29:30 +0000 (21:29 -0800)]
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20 months agomemoir: threats and timeless decision theory
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 11 Feb 2023 05:28:03 +0000 (21:28 -0800)]
memoir: threats and timeless decision theory

20 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd cont'd
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 10 Feb 2023 03:33:43 +0000 (19:33 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd cont'd

20 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 9 Feb 2023 05:05:50 +0000 (21:05 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight, cont'd ...

20 months agomemoir: why not comment
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 9 Feb 2023 00:47:41 +0000 (16:47 -0800)]
memoir: why not comment

20 months agocheck in against self-deception
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 8 Feb 2023 05:58:13 +0000 (21:58 -0800)]
check in against self-deception

...

20 months agomemoir: Eliezerfic fight ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 7 Feb 2023 01:19:31 +0000 (17:19 -0800)]
memoir: Eliezerfic fight ...

21 months agomemoir: editing prelude to Eliezerfic fight
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 31 Jan 2023 06:52:45 +0000 (22:52 -0800)]
memoir: editing prelude to Eliezerfic fight

21 months agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 28 Jan 2023 06:02:19 +0000 (22:02 -0800)]
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21 months agomemoir: yank out a new pt. 6?!
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 27 Jan 2023 19:24:50 +0000 (11:24 -0800)]
memoir: yank out a new pt. 6?!

"Agreeing With Stalin" was starting to push 30K words, and I still
have the bulk of the Eliezerfic fight analysis to write, and the
analysis of what's wrong with the "agreeing with Stalin" policy
deserves to be the central focus of its own blog post, without too
much Diary-like blather hanging off either end of it.

21 months agomemoir: Feynman
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 27 Jan 2023 19:07:40 +0000 (11:07 -0800)]
memoir: Feynman

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir: date night in Cambridge, pt. 1
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 26 Jan 2023 06:38:05 +0000 (22:38 -0800)]
memoir: date night in Cambridge, pt. 1

21 months agomemoir: "Vassarite" discourse
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 25 Jan 2023 05:31:49 +0000 (21:31 -0800)]
memoir: "Vassarite" discourse

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir: bullet notes of Boston–New York trip
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 24 Jan 2023 17:56:51 +0000 (09:56 -0800)]
memoir: bullet notes of Boston–New York trip

I hadn't previously thought of including this, but reviewing the
transcript of my conversation with Scott about "Vassarite" danger
reminded me of it, and it feels like it adds "color" to the story,
revealing information about real life that people don't ordinarily
write about?

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir poke: Jessica's memoir
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 24 Jan 2023 06:35:30 +0000 (22:35 -0800)]
memoir poke: Jessica's memoir

21 months agogather/check in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 23 Jan 2023 05:48:13 +0000 (21:48 -0800)]
gather/check in

21 months agomemoir: Extraordinary EMT Merrin
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 22 Jan 2023 03:10:19 +0000 (19:10 -0800)]
memoir: Extraordinary EMT Merrin

21 months agomemoir: Glowfic/dath ilan intro
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 21 Jan 2023 05:28:33 +0000 (21:28 -0800)]
memoir: Glowfic/dath ilan intro

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir: behind the scenes of "Challenges"
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 21 Jan 2023 01:55:12 +0000 (17:55 -0800)]
memoir: behind the scenes of "Challenges"

I like this chronological accounting much better than dumping the
quote of Oli's beautiful comment in a list of accusations.

21 months agomemoir: Challenges to Yudkowsky's Personality Cult
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 20 Jan 2023 05:52:27 +0000 (21:52 -0800)]
memoir: Challenges to Yudkowsky's Personality Cult

See—by exerting a little bit of discipline over the course of a day, I
can grow the ms. by 1000 words. If I just do that six days a week, I
can finish this project in a reasonable amount of time.

21 months agoYarvin dropped his pen name, too
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 20 Jan 2023 05:48:36 +0000 (21:48 -0800)]
Yarvin dropped his pen name, too

21 months agomemoir: if the world were at stake
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 19 Jan 2023 22:36:49 +0000 (14:36 -0800)]
memoir: if the world were at stake

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir poke: AlphaGo moments
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 19 Jan 2023 04:59:39 +0000 (20:59 -0800)]
memoir poke: AlphaGo moments

21 months ago"it takes a little boldness" (check in)
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 19:47:34 +0000 (11:47 -0800)]
"it takes a little boldness" (check in)

Still not feeling the boldness to charge forward with the ms.?! But I
have to—and it shouldn't be a matter of needing to force it. It's just
a matter of not being evasive. I want a clear account of how I've
spent–wasted the last seven years of my life so that I can stop being
a vengeful ghost, so that I can close the loop and start thinking new
thoughts again. I want it! And I need to understand that the only way
to do that—the only way to get there—is by carefully thinking all the
old thoughts (like I've done all day every day for years) while Emacs
happens to be open.

I don't need to be self-conscious about my text being bad, because I'm
not publishing yet. Even if someone can dig through my Git history
(because I'm so ideologically opposed to privacy that a link to the
repository is just sitting there in the footer, in public, even if I'm
human enough to sometimes want privacy against self-consciousness)
... my network cable isn't even plugged in now! And it won't be until
Saturday night. And I can amuse myself with frivolties then, and it
will feel good. But for now—for three and a half days—I need to be
sitting here being honest with myself. While Emacs happens to be open.

21 months agocheck in ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 05:49:03 +0000 (21:49 -0800)]
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21 months agofinish Johnny the Walrus review
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 18 Jan 2023 01:54:07 +0000 (17:54 -0800)]
finish Johnny the Walrus review

21 months agocheck in after waking up on the wrong side of the bed
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 17 Jan 2023 22:21:05 +0000 (14:21 -0800)]
check in after waking up on the wrong side of the bed

Having trouble getting started (thinking about how I'll slot in minor
posts before the memoir, including a "straight" version of the Murray
2021 review without the planned extended coda, doesn't count); in
despair, put the cable back in for a little bit, as if to "start
over", to say that my communications blackout hadn't "really" started
yet, because it's going to be an awesome-productivity time, and I
haven't been feeling awesome this morning and early afternoon.

21 months agogather resources before going dark again
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 17 Jan 2023 00:48:38 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
gather resources before going dark again

21 months agomemoir: filling in TODO blocks ...
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 15 Jan 2023 04:20:33 +0000 (20:20 -0800)]
memoir: filling in TODO blocks ...

21 months agomemoir: revise pseudonymity grafs given that I'll be dropping it
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 14 Jan 2023 17:55:07 +0000 (09:55 -0800)]
memoir: revise pseudonymity grafs given that I'll be dropping it

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir: outlining prep for Eliezerfic fight
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 13 Jan 2023 02:22:23 +0000 (18:22 -0800)]
memoir: outlining prep for Eliezerfic fight

21 months agomemoir pokes: writing to Scott and /r/gendercritical, dayjob IQ minimum
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Fri, 13 Jan 2023 01:11:02 +0000 (17:11 -0800)]
memoir pokes: writing to Scott and /r/gendercritical, dayjob IQ minimum

21 months agomemoir: humility vs. the vaccine gambit
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 12 Jan 2023 23:51:33 +0000 (15:51 -0800)]
memoir: humility vs. the vaccine gambit

21 months agomemoir pokes: critical communism, vaccine polarization
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Thu, 12 Jan 2023 06:50:16 +0000 (22:50 -0800)]
memoir pokes: critical communism, vaccine polarization

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agogather resources before going dark for a few days
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Wed, 11 Jan 2023 04:19:25 +0000 (20:19 -0800)]
gather resources before going dark for a few days

Network cable physically out, phone physically off is the way to
go. I'll see you later, bearing wordcount as a gift from my time away.

21 months agocheck in
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 10 Jan 2023 22:11:08 +0000 (14:11 -0800)]
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21 months agomemoir: eugenic dreams
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Tue, 10 Jan 2023 00:48:47 +0000 (16:48 -0800)]
memoir: eugenic dreams

21 months agomemoir swipes
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Mon, 9 Jan 2023 07:05:58 +0000 (23:05 -0800)]
memoir swipes

21 months agomemoir: some pt. 2 editing
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 21:49:19 +0000 (13:49 -0800)]
memoir: some pt. 2 editing

21 months agomemoir wordcount automation precision
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 19:35:35 +0000 (11:35 -0800)]
memoir wordcount automation precision

I think the LibreOffice Calc graph I brought up earlier was just
graphing the datapoints in sequence; the horizontal axis was "Git tree
time" (sampled every 5 commits) rather than sidereal time. If we grab
an end-of-day wordcount for every day, and stuff every day into the
spreadsheet, then the datapoints in sequence are sidereal time.

21 months agocheck in
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21 months agomemoir: Wilhelm's "sharp right turn"; and, Nevada
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sun, 8 Jan 2023 01:59:36 +0000 (17:59 -0800)]
memoir: Wilhelm's "sharp right turn"; and, Nevada

21 months agomemoir wordcount automation
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 7 Jan 2023 18:51:52 +0000 (10:51 -0800)]
memoir wordcount automation

This doesn't count as an accomplishment today, the second day of the
new year (that I'm willing to admit to), but it's—warming up my typing
fingers. Now to make the line go up!

21 months ago6 January is the first day of the new year
M. Taylor Saotome-Westlake [Sat, 7 Jan 2023 06:47:27 +0000 (22:47 -0800)]
6 January is the first day of the new year